Let me tell you a secret. Time misses not a single beat, it counts down and refuses to miss a moment. As we may struggle through these storms that tear apart our hopes, plans, dreams, homes, and feelings…time continues to nick away at our mental stability with each breath. It is the thing we do not understand and as such, many fear. A month and a half has passed since I last wrote, picked some up today. Right at the cusp of closing out the first half of Hail. 
I almost lost my son in that time, could have lost my older brother, too. My younger brother has joined the service, and in a week me and my chitlins will be moved into our new home. The job that pays my bills has been filled with so many highs and lows I’m wondering how I managed to get onto this roller coaster. How do you remain steadfast in your faith? When I believe I’ll finally break, when it’s impossible to take any more strain, that’s when I find the core of my faith, and God has never failed me here. There are plenty of things I wish I could do better, so many I’m working to improve. Yet, same as when I wrote the first and second book, same is with everything else in my life, all things come in due time. Just as they are meant to happen, when they are meant to happen. You cannot rush life, love, nor time. 

Take a breath.

Life measured in teaspoons

I have to admit, I’ve been receiving the brunt of life by the gallon-ful, and I’ve been drowning. I’m working on taking smaller portions, by the teaspoon as the title states.

My son has been sick, in the hospital over the holidays, and needing my attention/care more than before. At one point he almost didn’t make it, and it was the most horrifying thing to experience. To understand how close that loss was, no parent should ever experience. My older brother, as well, was sick, though in a different way. Thankfully, by the Grace of GOD my son is still here with us, and so is my older brother, and I have been doing everything I can to ensure a better future is ahead for my little family. I’ll be getting the shots I need for my migraines, I’m avoiding brain surgery for now – though I have had more symptoms crop up – and thanking God for the many more blessings that have granted to me and mine.

My house has a buyer, I found a house, contracts on each, and moving ahead! Should be moving early-ish February, and so thankful that we’re landing where we have!

Now, all this news I’m breaking today means I have not been able to write. At all. I even had to stop my reading sprint. I will be getting back at it ASAP! I need it, I have so much I want to write, especially after I reached that pivotal point in the book! Everything is moving along, just not how I expected. Is it ever, though?

One day I’ll share more on all that has transpired, for now, hold those you love dear close. Offer to be a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, and know you are Valued, Needed, and Wanted in this life. You never know who you will meet, or whose life you will change or impact. You never know that you can make the difference between someone having a family a year from now, keep them on the path to saving someone else’s life. And you will never be able to put a number on the lives that can be impacted and influenced with one simple, kind gesture. Each of us is here for a reason, even when things are hard and painfully, keep hope. Keep faith. God is working through you in mysterious ways.